I keep waiting for her to come back, but all I find is the ghost of who she used to be. In the corner drowning in thoughts she can’t control. Broken she lays in bed.
Fighting to stay in this world, fighting to grasp a bit of light.
Beauty surrounds her, yet she can’t get a grasp of it, everything seems so far away.
I learned a very valuable lesson this week. Like you all know I got a very bad muscle spasm this week. I have been in pain and resting at home. For those of you thinking this did not happened because I do crossfit, I started having this pain 8 years ago, before I was even into exercising like I am now. I have a disc thats degenerating, its normal for this to happen, apparently 50% of people have it and not all notice they have it ever. In my case it does bother me.
Well back to what I learned, I remember having a thought come to my mind, that I was trying to do everything myself, and that I needed to ask the Lord for help, that he was there to help me. I thought about it for a while and I have been trying to do everything myself, I need to not just ask the Lord for help but also people around me. I am not alone. I have always believed I am a strong person and independent, so I try to avoid getting help if I can, at home I installed my sons shower, I learned how to drill holes on the wall to hang things, I like to paint the house by myself, but then I also have to help David study and do his homework and do everything a mom does, work half time in my regular job, work on the business I have with my best friend, and so I can be happy I take photos on the free time. I don’t feel like is a lot, I love being productive and feeling like I am useful. But I guess the Lord is trying to teach me a lesson, to be more humble and learn to ask for help, be close to Him so I don’t forget I am alone.
Is it not a beautiful scripture? What a beautiful promise we get, all of us! We sometimes forget we are not alone here on earth, we have the Lord watching over us and wanting to help, we just need to ask for it. So many times I am hoping David will come to me so I can help him, and its so smooth and nice when he comes to me. But when I am trying so hard and he doesn’t want my help then there is not much I can do for him, even if I want to. The same is with us. The Lord is waiting for us to come to Him, He can’t force us to look for him.
Well and that it for now. Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend, getting ready to start a new day. Any input on the subject is welcome. How to be humble and ask for help.
Yesterday was a bad day. David came home and his backpack was filled with water. All his books were wet. I have been having a lot of trouble lately with him, making him do his homework, teaching him to be more clean when he works, he is so lazy that instead of erasing something he will just scratch it, you can imagine how his notebooks look. And yesterday I just had enough. I was so mad, I couldn’t even bare looking at him. I got super mad, pull an adult tantrum with my brother, told him how I was feeling then went to bed and felt better. I always forget he is 9 years old, and is good that I want to teach him to be organized, clean and the habit of studying and doing his homework, but it will take time, it wont happen from one day to the other. There might be some kids that are already clean and organized, but I don’t have to compare him with others.
Today I woke up feeling much better, even my back is hurting less, I can now sit without having pain. It was about time, two days in bed was driving me crazy. So today I cleaned and organized the house a little, nothing else makes me happier than cleaning and organizing my home. I am trying to declutter the house, get rid of things that I don’t need anymore. Its so refreshing. I love it, it makes me be in such a good mood.
I also went to buy a new plant for my living room and a basket to put random stuff that people leave so that later I can put it in its place without the living room looking like a mess. The only thing missing are frames I want to hang on the wall and it will be done. Here is a preview of how it is looking so far.
Today I also went to a green house a block away from my house. There is nothing that gives me more peace than to walk through there and look at all the beautiful flowers and plants. I got a new small plant. As if my house didn’t have enough plants, its a jungle inside, but I love it. It is so nice to be filled by beautiful things like flowers and plants, I have to take advantage that I live in a country were everything blooms.
Whats your favorite place to go and feel calmed and happy?
I once read a post on instagram where someone was showing a beautiful picture of themselves and the caption read “ no bad days”. It bother me a lot. I wanted to comment a few things, 1. What is wrong with having bad days? 2. Are you a robot with no feelings, perfect that you are able to have only good days?
We are often sucked into this bubble that social media is creating, good positive and only amazing fabulous things are allowed to be posted on instagram. Don’t you dare post if you are having financial problems, or if you had a sad day. I guess its very nice to share the good moments with people, who wants to remember and share bad memories. I understand perfectly, but what this is creating is for people to feel like life is only good if you are perfect like the others. We are forgetting everyone has bad days too.
Before I used to be so upset if I was having a bad day or if I was feeling sad. I would always fight against it, I would try to change it so it could be a good day. But lately I have been learning to just go with the flow. It is ok if one day you feel sad and don’t feel like doing anything. For me is a way of my body telling me; hey slow down a little, take a breath, rest. You need to listen to your body more often and let it be. Or I have learned is ok if not everything goes the way I wanted, there are other days and getting frustrated with me will only make things worst.
For example, yesterday I bent down to pick up something and when I tried standing up I could not! My back started hurting so bad, I got a muscle spasm just like that. I know is not as simple as it sounds, I have a herniated disk and once a year this happens out of nowhere. I really haven’t been exercising much lately, it was probably because I have been very stressed. Usually I would be really upset, because is not a nice situation, its sad to be stuck in bed for a few days, but now I just accept it. I go through instagram stories and I want to be working out like all those girls in shape working out everyday, but I need to accept we all have good and bad days, and is ok.
So to end this post I just want to say lets be more honest in our posts, share the good and the bad. Lets encourage each other and be more transparent of how our life really is.
I meant to write soon an update but to tell you the truth it Has not been easy the last 4 months. I had to change the dose of the anxiety medication 3 times. Then I had to change my depression medication 3 times as well. I was very sick with lots of side effects adjusting to the medication and finally at the end of November we were able to find the right dose for the anxiety and the right medicine for my depression. Thanks to my brother who was doing rotation in psychiatry he learned in class that if there are other cases of depression or anxiety in the family the same medication might work for all the family members. Thats the case with me, on my mom side of the family there is a lot of depression and anxiety. So I started taking the same medicine my aunt and my mom take and it worked well with me. No side effects only good results. You can not imagine how happy I was. I thought I was not going to travel this year. To be honest I didn’t want to. It’s been some really hard months. But I know it’s for the best.
November was better. I finally started going to CrossFit again. It was so hard at the beginning because I was taking a medicine that sedated me all day so I had no strength. And it was very frustrating because I felt everything I had been working on Crossfit all year was gone. But I tried having a normal life regardless of how I was feeling. Specially with David. I would have to take several naps a day to have the energy to do things with him. But now with the last medication they gave me I feel back to normal. I was able to travel, took David to New York and we had a really fun adventure together like old times. It was so much fun. I need to write about that some other time.
But let me tell you, taking medication doesn’t mean everything is fixed. I still have my bad moments. Last time I had an anxiety attack was on Tuesday . There are some things that trigger it and I try controlling it but is so hard sometimes. The medication is nice because it helps when I have crisis too.
But I can see life getting better. I no longer have suicide thoughts like I used to. That was horrible. I would cry because I didn’t wanted to have those thoughts in my mind. My eating habits are back to normal. I no longer feel the need to eat everything I see because of the anxiety and my mood is so much better too.
There are still some little things I struggle with. But I know the medication is not supposed to fix all my life. I know I will still struggle with some things and that’s how life is.
I just want to say I am so thankful for my friend Nils, who was so open about this subject. He helped me to make the decision to take medication. And I am grateful for that. I am grateful that he was so open about the subject, talking about his own experience with anxiety and depression and that helped me so much. I feel like there is this taboo where people think talking about this subject makes you look like you are weak, or crazy. But is not like that. Like I have mentioned before you are just sick, is like saying you are sick with gastrointestinal problems or dealing with other health problems. There is nothing to be embarrassed.
Lets all be more open about the subject and like my friend Nils said that will make it easier for all of us to help each other. I am also so thankful for all my friends who have shown a lot of support.
I have never been embarrassed about my situation. I know in my family is hereditary to have these problems and I am always happy sharing my experience with others. Hopefully I can help someone just like my friend did with me.
I don’t know how many people will be interested in my new post. Most of the things I write here are very personal. Some I write in the hope I can help someone with my experience and others just because I enjoy writing on this blog.
A week ago I went to the psychiatrist. I was so scared all the way until I got there, I even had a mini anxiety attack. It is a big deal for me because I have been trying to manage anxiety with alternative methods. If you read my blog often you will know what I have been doing to control it.
Two weeks ago I was feeling so overwhelmed, well for a month I have been feeling like this. I have too much to do and controlling my anxiety was impossible. So I decided to get help. Is ok to get help. Many people are scared to go to a therapist or a psychiatrist. There is nothing wrong with getting a little help. Remember, if you are sick you will go to the doctor, and they will prescribe medicine for it. The same is with a psychiatrist. Doesn’t mean you are crazy, there are some levels in your brain that need regulating and thats when they will prescribe medicine.
If you know me I am a divorced mom. I have one son. I work half time and the other half time I am a mom, helping my son study, taking him to his clases and enjoying him as much as I can. We love to travel everywhere and are looking for new adventures all the time. I exercise regularly and live an active life.
So why go to a psychiatrist. Well this is the thing, my motivation is my son, and I will do anything for him, even if it means functioning even when I am not feeling well. And lately my thoughts where too much to deal with, leading me to overeating, and that leading to not be able to exercise and feeling sick. I kept doing the same things, but my mind and anxiety kept getting worse.
I started taking medication for it. Its been a week since I started. I have had my ups and downs. In the mornings I dont feel myself. I feel like I am in automode. Its very hard to explain, its kinda like a zombie mode, I do everything, go to work, but no thoughts nothing, like I am in a weird trance. But right after lunch I start feeling myself again, happy, exited about life, the normal me. I finally stoped overeating, because I am not anxious anymore. Back to eating healthy. My mood is amazing, I have so much patience with dealing with David, and I do it with lots and lots of love. Not that I didn’t before, but somedays I would just lose it and not be patient when it came to certain things. Now I feel I have more control over me.
I wont say everything is much better. Today I felt sick in the morning and had to stop working and last Thursday I was feeling so sick I didn’t go to work. But I am going to be patient, the doctor said it would take 3 weeks for my body to adjust to the medication, and I can see it will all be ok soon. Thanks to the help of many friends who are going through similar things I have been able to solve some doubts I had and keep me motivated. I am not alone in this.
So If any of you need to talk or have questions please reach out to me. I am more than happy to write back. DM through instagram. Or write a comment here.
I will keep updates on how I keep feeling.
I seem to have a problem. I love dogs too much, and they all know it. As you may know if I could I would adopt every dog on the street. I have always had a soft spot in my heart for all animals but specially for dogs. I believe they are special animals meant to be man, women and kids companions.
Recently I had a very special experience with my dog. But first let me tell you her story.
Her name is Pecas. Exactly 3 years ago my brother found her begging for food at the university campus. He was with a friend of his having lunch. He saw that day that she was a special and good dog and immediately called me to see if he could bring her home. I told him yes! Someone walked by and asked my brother if he could take her, so my brother said yes and came home empty handed. The next day his friend from school called him to say she had found the same dog alone like 10 kilometres away from their school. My brother told her to keep and eye on her, he was going to go pick her up. We both went there and found her being friendly to everyone. We brought her home.
She has been a blessing in our home, little by little she became part of the family and oh how much we love her.
Now that you know her story let me tell you about my experience the other day. I know another story, please stay with me, I am going to make my point soon.
Pecas usually sleeps wherever she wants. But when I am going to bed she is usually with me. That night I couldn’t find her. To my surprise she was with my son in his bed next to him. That doesn’t happen very often. I was surprised. When I got close I saw David was crying. And there she was, next to him while he hugged her. I felt immediate gratitude that he had a companion to comfort him while he was sad.
Pecas has blessed our home in many ways. She brings us joy and happiness. Whenever we come home she is always waiting happily at the door to greet us. We always have a companion, she comes with us to Karate where we practically live since David is in the competition team. She is amazing to cuddle, she keeps us safe from any animal or insects. She is a great rat hunter. Has been very handy twice. She comforts us when we are sad and makes great company on the good days too. She loves playing hide and seek with David but above all there is something she has done that I appreciate the most. She has shown David to have respect for all living things. It’s so easy to no respect an animal who can`t speak for itself. But if a young child is tought to respect his dog he will also respect any person. He has learned to be responsible for her care. And he has learned what true and unconditional love is.
Today I want to urge you to find a place in your heart for all those sad dogs on the street alone, starving and looking for someone to love them. They have so much to give, so much love. Pecas has made our family so happy since the day she got here. I promise they won’t disappoint you.
Oh and fun fact. Dogs in particular can reduce stress, anxiety, and depression, ease loneliness, encourage exercise and playfulness, and even improve your cardiovascular health. Caring for a dog can help children grow up more secure and active or provide valuable companionship for older adults.
So what are you waiting for, start looking for your companion, or let it find you, just like pecas did, she found us!
This is me at my worse, but at the same time the very essence of who I am. Thank you Ben Howells for the photo. Surrounded by hundreds of dogs with my camera.
It is very hard to write this post. I keep thinking I should not do it, it's very embarrassing telling your problems to the whole world, it is easier to write a post about how much fun it's a hobby you enjoy or about your last vacation. Last time I did a post similar to what I am about to write I got a lot of encouragement from people as if I was feeling sorry for myself.
I want to be very clear, the reason I am writing this is to help other people who are suffering just like I did a year ago. It is to let them know there is hope, that things will not always be bad. Hopefully my experience can help someone. I remember looking online for help as I felt desperate to get out of the dark place I was. So being this said I will start my post.
A year ago I started having anxiety attacks again. Last time I had them was 10 years ago. It was horrible, I couldn't control myself, I would start panicking without reason, couldn't breathe properly, I would burst into tears without any reason either. Horrible thoughts came to my mind. I wanted to faint into an endless sleep, and wake up until everything was fixed that was wrong with me. I ate everything I could find near me. The anxiety was drowning me.
Today its going to be a year since that happened, and not too long ago I realized I am able to control my thoughts, control my anxiety and depression. How did I do it? It was not easy at all. And the first thing I want you to understand is that you might have the will to overcome things, and thats very important, if not the most important thing to get over it, but understand that you will never be able to do it alone. In my case I turned to God and to my family for help. If you don't believe in God thats alright, we all have different believes and thats alright. But what I want you to understand is that you need help from someone else. I reached out to my family, and my closest friends. They all played an important role in helping me overcome this.
First with the support of my dad I started going to a Therapist. It was hard to listen to what she had to say, but it was just what I needed to hear. She insisted on having me take antidepressants, but I refused, I asked her to please give me a chance to prove I could do something different and not take medication, and if it didn't work I would gladly take the medication. And so thats when I started exercising. I started boxing. My friends supported me and encouraged me to go everyday. whenever I had anxiety I just wanted to stay at home, but they called me and made me go exercise. This helped me so much, and my therapist noticed it was helping me overcome anxiety without the medication.
@crossfit502Newborn Guatemala
The second thing that helped me was realizing exercise calmed me and made the anxiety go away. I can no longer live a life where I am not active everyday. After boxing I started doing Crossfit again, and that has made me very happy in many ways. Crossfit brings people together, you gain a new family, who encourage you everyday to be a better person. It helps you believe in yourself and by achieving new things everyday you boost your self-esteem. I love it, and it is now a very important part of my life.
The third thing I learned is that there are many things I can do to control my anxiety. If I don't get enough sleep I will wake up with anxiety the next day. It's very important to get to know your body, and listen to what it needs to function well. In my case if I don't get enough sleep I wake up with a lot of anxiety. So I make sure I have enough sleep now. I also take care of what I eat. caffeine is very bad for me. I don't drink coffee, but there are other ways you can get caffeine. I avoid coke or any sodas with caffeine , and avoid chocolate. The funny thing is that whenever I feel anxious I crave chocolate, and little did I know I was feeding the anxiety even more when I would eat chocolate. So no chocolate for me. In general you need to take care of your body so your mind can also be well.
Fourth train your mind. Just like I train my body I need to train my mind. A week ago a got a thought in my head, and usually how anxiety starts for me is with a though, and that though I will repeat it in my mind over and over again until I get very anxious and end up depressed for a week or with an anxiety attack. The thought is always negative and makes me think bad about myself. A week ago that thought that came to my mind I repeated it twice and then I said, NO, I will not let this affect me, what ever happens will happen, I have no control over the future and I need to have faith that things will work out at the end. After I did that I realized I had achieved that, I had stoped the thought from turning into something worse. But that didn't happen from one day to another, it took a year of training my mind. It was not easy. Things like this take time, you need to be patient.
The fifth, very important, I have been praying so much for help to have strength to overcome my weakness. I rely on the Lord everyday, I pray to have strength, to have courage to be well to be the mum my son needs me to be, to carry on my responsibilities, not only as a mum but to myself and with my job. He helps me. Counting my many blessings also help. Having depression can make you look only at the negative things and also make things look worse than they are. Counting all the many blessing I have makes me snap out of that negative reality. And then I pray and give thanks for everything good in my life.
And last but not least, love yourself. Anxiety usually comes from wanting to control the future. If you trust in yourself, trust that you are enough, trust that you are a wonderful person and turn off whatever insecurities you might have, that will help you stop trying to control the future. Know you are a wonderful person, that you can achieve many great things. Love yourself.
So I hope this can help someone who is struggling with the same problem, know I am here if you need anything, I would gladly love to help in anyway I can. You can always DM me on instagram or leave a comment and I will get back to you. Overcoming anxiety and depression is not easy, don't try to do it alone. And understand it is not something that goes away either. I know this will always be there, maybe it won't affect me for other 10 years, but having overcome it twice helps me know I can overcome it again, hopefully I don't have to anymore. Even though I feel good now I have not stoped doing any of the things I told you helped me. I keep my family and friends close, I won't miss a day of exercise. I know I have to keep the sabbath day, so I will not go to crossfit, but I take my dog for a walk, I avoid staying up late and I watch what I eat. And I won't ever stop taking care of myself. I have learned to love myself, specially being a mother, I am responsible for taking care of my son. My depression and anxiety has never kept me from being a responsible mother, I have always put him first even if I don't feel like getting out of bed that day. I get up anyways because he comes first. But now I can be a happier mother and enjoy more my time with him. If you don't have that extra motivation, then know you are as important, you are someone son or daughter and you deserve being happy and well.
I have been meaning to write more often. Not going to make excuses, I just dont make time for it.
On March 21st was NATIONAL SINGLE PARENT DAY! As many of you know I am a single parent, and what a hard task it is. I should have made a bigger effort to celebrate this day. There are many of us out there doing a great job as single parents. I congratulate you!
As many of you single parents know, it is not an easy task to be a parent, and even less to do it alone. Many of you go through frustration and sad days. I want to admit I was having one of those days on March 21st. Social media makes you create this life where there is no sadness or mess in peoples life. I believe I am one of them sometimes if you check out my Instagram page.
Today I want to post about REAL Life as a SINGLE PARENT. I don't want to sound as a victim or someone that wants sympathy, what I want to achieve with my post is authenticity. I know for a fact that parents either single or not, go through many challenges, being a parent is no easy task.
Some struggle with different problems, but is not always grey and sad or hard. There are also so many good moments! I love being a single mother, my son is growing up so fast and so far I love how he is turning out. It hasn't been easy I can tell you, but the trials we have had together is shaping him to be a great person.
One of the things I struggle the most is to have time to do everything I need to do and manage my time wisely. Not too long ago I suffered an anxiety episode for pushing myself too hard to do more than I can. Let me share what I have learned from it.
I am pretty sure there are more things I learned from this experience that I am not going to write, if you have any other suggestion that helps you not stress out and go crazy please make sure you share them with me. I am all ears.
Keep up the good job, there is no greater reward than being proud of your children who are the future in this world. Keep the good work.
Lately I have had the felling that something is missing. I have been walking to my living room downstairs everyday, it is a very big room almost empty, and I sit on the floor. Usually I stare at the window, admire the garden in the back, look at the empty walls, lay on the floor and stare at the roof. There has been this feeling that something is missing, and I have been trying to figure out what that is.
Without noticing I have found myself doing over and over again things that don't fill me inside, my inner spark has been off for sometime now. And today I realized I don't do anything I am passionate or once was passionate about.
I asked myself, Sara what inspires you? What makes you want to get out of bed everyday and help you start the day with joy and happiness? What are your goals in life? Do I need to learn new things or remember how to do the things I have always loved doing?
I hope this list might help you find that light in your life again and if you do already maybe get new ideas? Some people love the excitement of reading a book, and that lights up their day and makes them feel like their life is an adventure when they read. Others might find inspiration at school, by listening to others wisdom. Some find inspiration by playing with their children and portraying that happiness in a canvas with paint. It is never to late to find it. Others love their jobs and do it with such passion they look forward waking up in the morning everyday.
Find the beauty in things you do everyday. Life is beautiful, you just need to look up and you will noticed what you have been missing.
I am a mom in charge of helping with the school activities and anything the teachers need. Today we prepared the candy bags the bunny will give the kids tomorrow at school. I spent all morning cutting and glueing bunny bags.
Later on me and David went to check our potato plant, it is growing so fast. I am really exited. I was told it will take 3 months for the potatoes to grow and they wont fit where I planted them, so have to figure what to do about it.
Then we decorated easter eggs. I love how David is getting more artistic everyday. Yesterday we made paper easter eggs and painted them with markers.
At dinner time it was a fight like always, I don´t think I ever enjoy my dinner, we are always fighting, trying David to eat, and now that the doctor told me he has to gain weight is even more stressful. But I know he will gain it eventually, I am just complicated and worry too much like any mom would.
I wanted the day to be over, so told David to hurry, wash his teeth, go to bed and sleep. But then he brought me a book someone gave him at school. So I told him we could read it. He loves reading before going to bed.
The front cover explain how by reading that book they would learn many values,
We read about respect. I will summarize the story. It was about two roosters who would bully a duck. The duck felt bad because he would get teased by the roosters very often. Then one day the duck noticed the roosters bullied each other too. So the duck felt relief knowing they bullied everyone and not only him.
The moral of the story was that if you move to a town and everyone does not respect each other and you cant expect anyone to respect you either. Just accept that people are like that.
I don´t agree with that!! Made me so mad reading what they want to teach the kids. So I decided to teach David something different. Tell him a different story and I made it fun.
There was a town very far away, everyone there was mean to each other, nobody respected anything. People would kill the plants, paint and destroy other peoples homes, paint the walls, etc.
One day a boy named David came to that town. David was very nice with everyone, he would pick the trash, take care of the plants. He would be nice to people even if the others where not. If someone dropped their pen, he would pick it up for them. ( Then I turned the light of my phone and gave it to David)
People in the dark saw Davids light shine! They loved it and were attracted to it, (David laughs). All the people in the town wanted to have that light too! So they started being nice to each other and taking care of everything that surrounded them and soon all the town had light (turned the rest of the lights on in the room).
At the end I told David, even in the darkest places we can shine, and by our example people can change. We can inspire other people to be the good in the world. Sometimes people forget and they just need a little reminder that we can be good again.
He loved it so much that we had to dramatize the whole story again. It was so fun. I loved it. I will have to film it for my next post and I will upload it, I promise.
Another year has passed by so quickly. I was looking back at the photos from last year and other years and came across these photos.
I took them with my film camera when I lived in Hawaii. It made me miss that place so much, but it also made me think of all the progress I have made since I lived there. Usually when a new year starts we look back and pay attention to the things we didn't accomplish, and set new goals to achieve them. That is very good, but it is also good to look back and take a moment to celebrate everything that we have accomplished too. See all the positive things that the hard trials brought, think of everything that we learned, and how much we have grown.
I think it is a good way to motivate yourself and notice that you are capable of doing great things on this new year!
I leave you here an art I did for when you write down your goals and this will help you achieve them.
I am trying to catch up and post the photos from my trips. I had the opportunity of going to Haiti in September. It was definitely an adventure since the beginning of the trip.
The key to having successful trips like this is finding the right people to travel. Don't have any expectations, you can plan but always be flexible and if things don't go the way you wanted always see the bright side and enjoy everything about the new place you are exploring.
Nothing really worked out the way we wanted, starting from the airport, our contact arrived like 5 hours later, the rental car took like 2 hours. People everywhere could tell we were tourists, trying to take us outside the airport, it was all so crazy.
At the end things worked out, we were able to do what we went to do and at the same time enjoyed being a tourist for a couple of hours.
Working with akin clothing has been such a wonderful experience and blessing. It is a dream job, I get to do what I love and help so many kids at a time. I have pondered this many times, and try to think how to make this world a better place and have come up with two things as the most important.
These kids are the future and they can make a difference in this world. Akin clothing is helping so many kids around the world get an education. This is the school they helped in Haiti.
“We travel not to escape life, but for life not to escape us.”
“God gave us families to help us become what he wants us to be.”
Last week my uncle came to visit us here in Guatemala. It was so nice to be able to spend time with all the family, with my grandma, dad, brother, my uncle and my son. This weekend it was a reminder of how important family really is and how easy it is to forget the importance of family.
Writing about family reminded me of a General Conference talk quote, "God gave us families to help us become what he wants us to be." I was pondering about this, because as you know it is not easy when it comes to families. In my case my family all lives far away, the only one I am close to is my big brother and grandma. It is so easy to fall apart and each go their own way. And we forget the beauty of having a family, how we can all help each other, support each other. We are not alone here on this earth, God gave us a family.
I started thinking of how I don't have a good relationship with my little brother, I haven't lived with him ever since I was 18 , that is almost 10 years ago now. I don't know how to get close to him, but I know that my Heavenly Father understands him and me, so If i get closer to Him, study more my scriptures, read talks like this one from General conference I know my heart will grow and I will learn to love every member of family and He will make the way so that I can get closer to my family.
It is almost Christmas, a time to all gather together as a family and celebrate the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ. So I hope you all can enjoy, and come together as a family.
I am thankful for my uncle's visit to Guatemala and being able to spend time with him and as a family. Thank you!
First blog post of the new website. If you know me you know I have always been passionate about photography. For almost 7 years I pretty much gave it up. I became a mom and came back to Guatemala after living in Hawaii for 2 years studying Art 2D with emphasis in Photography. I was really frustrating coming back, that I gave up photography, design and any form of art expression. This is really hard for me to start my blog and website and show the things I like to do, because I feel like I am not as good as I used to be 7 years ago. I hope you can enjoy my work, I promise I will get better again with time. Enjoy and please comment below, I love feedback.
Sometimes the nicest days are the ones when you can just stay at home, enjoy being with your family, take care of the garden, if you know how to, or in my case learn how to take care of your garden, read a book and play with your dog outside.
The photos here are of a really good friend. He does such a good job taking care of his garden, has 3 lovely german shepherds who love him so much.
It was such a nice day and I had not been able to post the photos. I love dogs, so take me anywhere where they have dogs and I will have a good time.
