I don’t know how many people will be interested in my new post. Most of the things I write here are very personal. Some I write in the hope I can help someone with my experience and others just because I enjoy writing on this blog.
A week ago I went to the psychiatrist. I was so scared all the way until I got there, I even had a mini anxiety attack. It is a big deal for me because I have been trying to manage anxiety with alternative methods. If you read my blog often you will know what I have been doing to control it.
Two weeks ago I was feeling so overwhelmed, well for a month I have been feeling like this. I have too much to do and controlling my anxiety was impossible. So I decided to get help. Is ok to get help. Many people are scared to go to a therapist or a psychiatrist. There is nothing wrong with getting a little help. Remember, if you are sick you will go to the doctor, and they will prescribe medicine for it. The same is with a psychiatrist. Doesn’t mean you are crazy, there are some levels in your brain that need regulating and thats when they will prescribe medicine.
If you know me I am a divorced mom. I have one son. I work half time and the other half time I am a mom, helping my son study, taking him to his clases and enjoying him as much as I can. We love to travel everywhere and are looking for new adventures all the time. I exercise regularly and live an active life.
So why go to a psychiatrist. Well this is the thing, my motivation is my son, and I will do anything for him, even if it means functioning even when I am not feeling well. And lately my thoughts where too much to deal with, leading me to overeating, and that leading to not be able to exercise and feeling sick. I kept doing the same things, but my mind and anxiety kept getting worse.
I started taking medication for it. Its been a week since I started. I have had my ups and downs. In the mornings I dont feel myself. I feel like I am in automode. Its very hard to explain, its kinda like a zombie mode, I do everything, go to work, but no thoughts nothing, like I am in a weird trance. But right after lunch I start feeling myself again, happy, exited about life, the normal me. I finally stoped overeating, because I am not anxious anymore. Back to eating healthy. My mood is amazing, I have so much patience with dealing with David, and I do it with lots and lots of love. Not that I didn’t before, but somedays I would just lose it and not be patient when it came to certain things. Now I feel I have more control over me.
I wont say everything is much better. Today I felt sick in the morning and had to stop working and last Thursday I was feeling so sick I didn’t go to work. But I am going to be patient, the doctor said it would take 3 weeks for my body to adjust to the medication, and I can see it will all be ok soon. Thanks to the help of many friends who are going through similar things I have been able to solve some doubts I had and keep me motivated. I am not alone in this.
So If any of you need to talk or have questions please reach out to me. I am more than happy to write back. DM through instagram. Or write a comment here.
I will keep updates on how I keep feeling.