Lately I have had the felling that something is missing. I have been walking to my living room downstairs everyday, it is a very big room almost empty, and I sit on the floor. Usually I stare at the window, admire the garden in the back, look at the empty walls, lay on the floor and stare at the roof. There has been this feeling that something is missing, and I have been trying to figure out what that is.
Without noticing I have found myself doing over and over again things that don't fill me inside, my inner spark has been off for sometime now. And today I realized I don't do anything I am passionate or once was passionate about.
I asked myself, Sara what inspires you? What makes you want to get out of bed everyday and help you start the day with joy and happiness? What are your goals in life? Do I need to learn new things or remember how to do the things I have always loved doing?
Then I started making a list on my mind of things I could be passionate about. I have always loved making lists.
- Little by little make your home the home of your dreams, a place you enjoy being at, a place that fills you up with joy, or a cozy place to be when things don't turn the way you wanted them to be. A place to make happy memories with the ones you love.
- My son has always been my number one inspiration, but that can turn out into a routine too, and one day you find yourself doing the same things with them. When life should be about exploring, trying new things, enjoying the little things with them, helping them to be passionate and find something they loved doing.
- P h o t o g r a p h y . Taking photos has turned into a routine, you get your camera and record what is around you. You might like to play and compose the photo in a way that is pleasant and pretty to see, but I don't go further than that. Photography used to be more than that to me. It was a way to show the world there is a story behind everything. It was a way to bring my emotions to life and share it with the ones around me.
- Religion. We all believe in something greater, we all have hope and faith not matter what group you belong to. Religion shouldn't be something that you do because is the right thing to do. Many emotions come to my mind when I think of religion, how it is another thing that used to be of inspiration for improvement. God loves every single on of us, and He is so great that has given us many tools to find happiness and joy.
- Making lists. I used to make list of different things, movies, books, words, new words, names, girl names, countries, colors, anything that would come to mind.
- Creating new things. Whenever I finish something there is this filling of achievement. Getting yourself to get out of that confort zone. I think that is something I miss the most. It is so easy to fall in to the same routine everyday and do the things you feel safe doing. But when you push yourself to do new things, when you push yourself to think out of the bubble is when great an amazing things happen, sometimes, other times you just learn that maybe you are not good at doing somethings or maybe if you practice and want it badly enough you will someday be great at it. I think this is the one I haven't done in a long time. I have found myself full of fear so I do the things I know I am safe doing and things that don't lead anywhere.
- Explore the world. This I am getting better at. I used to be so scared of going on my on to new places, but I have found nothing happens if you are careful. Me and my son do that now often.
- Find ways to serve and help others, there is always a way to serve and to help. We used to sit me and my son and think about ways to help people we saw we could serve. One time he had the idea of making a bag with extra things he had like a coloring book, crayons and some food, so we would go give it to them. I used to love doing that with him.
So thats my list! Now you think, what are you passionate about? What inspires you and makes you happy, fills you with joy. What gets you exited and something to look forward everyday!??
I hope this list might help you find that light in your life again and if you do already maybe get new ideas? Some people love the excitement of reading a book, and that lights up their day and makes them feel like their life is an adventure when they read. Others might find inspiration at school, by listening to others wisdom. Some find inspiration by playing with their children and portraying that happiness in a canvas with paint. It is never to late to find it. Others love their jobs and do it with such passion they look forward waking up in the morning everyday.
What is yours??
Find the beauty in things you do everyday. Life is beautiful, you just need to look up and you will noticed what you have been missing.
